I just posted this whole long story.. but I don't know where it went... to make a long story short.. I am so sorry for your loss.. I know how you feel .. my family and I just went through that a few years back... If you need someone to talk to PM me... or go to www.aplb.org It is a great website just for animal pet loss.... there is a chat room and people there all the time to help you through.. I have been there when my doberman died from a heart attack.. and when we had to have our cocker put down from old age.. he was 16... so let me know if you want to chat Andrea
When I lost my 16 year old cat, I read and cried and reread and cried over the poem, The Last Battle (below). It can be found with other inspirational essays and messages at the following web site: http://petloss.com/poems/poems.htm The Last Battle If it should be that I grow frail and weak And pain should keep me from my sleep, Then will you do what must be done, For this -- the last battle -- can't be won. You will be sad I understand, But don't let grief then stay your hand, For on this day, more than the rest, Your love and friendship must stand the test. We have had so many happy years, You wouldn't want me to suffer so. When the time comes, please, let me go. Take me to where to my needs they'll tend, Only, stay with me till the end And hold me firm and speak to me Until my eyes no longer see. I know in time you will agree It is a kindness you do to me. Although my tail its last has waved, From pain and suffering I have been saved. Don't grieve that it must be you Who has to decide this thing to do; We've been so close -- we two -- these years, Don't let your heart hold any tears. -- Unknown